sedative (my manic manifesto)
I’m obsessive.
I’m an undiagnosed manic depressive.
Give me more than one option and you’ll regret it.
But don’t sweat it,
Because in the morning I’m bound to forget it…
Not…
And if I let it,
The tiniest of thoughts could get repetitive.
I’ve been looping this for days,
I need a sedative.
Let it settle in…
I could really use a sedative.
but my timing’s always off
And I’m feeling kind of lost.
Fuck, I almost killed this thought,
Man, I’d really love to stop,
And if I can, well, I forgot,
How to pause and how to drop,
And if “loving’s what I got,”
Well then “loving’s what I got”…over and over again.
Did I trigger you?
I’m so sorry that my pain came into your Perfect view.
Next time I’ll just, cut off my hair,
And maybe get a new tattoo.
“I don’t know,
just Don’t get bangs, just
Cut off an inch or two…”
I say to myself…
In the mirror...
but my timing’s always off
And I’m feeling kind of lost.
Fuck, I almost killed this thought,
Man, I’d really love to stop…
And if I can, well, I forgot,
How to pause and, how to drop,
And if “loving’s what I got,”
Well then “loving’s what I got”…over and over again..
and over and over and over and over, and over again…
Until I kill the record.
Fuck, it’s killing me.
I can’t Break out from this cycle of This OCD.
It’s like I’m just stuck on this wash, rinse cycle,
and then repeat.
Except I haven’t
showered, or changed my Clothes in…,
Mmm, a week?
But who could blame me?
…my mom maybe…
but my timing’s always off
And I’m feeling kind of lost
Fuck, I almost killed this thought,
Man, I’d really love to stop…
And if I can, well, I forgot,
How to pause and, how to drop it,
And if “loving’s what I got,”
Well then “loving’s what I got.”
And then I’ll put it to the ethers,
‘Til it’s blasting through your speakers.
Think I saw you at my rebirth,
I remember all your features.
She said “maybe we’re just creatures?”
i tell ya, I believe her.
I really, I wanna keep her…
Can I keep her?
Can I keep her?
